your hands tight around my neck
my eyes wide with fear
looking into yours
and seeing evil
your grip getting stronger
my head swelling
the blood vessels around my eyes
POPPING
me clawing at your hands
wanting so badly to scream
and beg
my mouth open
tiny squeaks escaping
everything is going dim
as i stare into your eyes
trying to speak to you
with my helplessness
your face stern
unaffected
by my silent pleas
for mercy
i cant breathe
i’m panicking
i’m choking
you’re killing me
everything that seemed so big
seems so small now
i’m so weak now
cant see you clearly anymore
cant fight anymore
i’m mouthing “please”
in one last effort
thinking these are the hands
of my protector
we created life together
you’re taking mine
so sad
i had to be rescued
by my baby girl
sad
that i couldnt swallow
for one week
the bruises were visible
for two
the scars are forever though
i can forgive
i have forgiven
but i will never forget.
