I’m sorry this has taken so long. My heart aches as I think of all of the things I did to hurt you. I am so sorry I chose a soul numbing substance over you…over our family. Sorry I hurt your mother. Sorry I robbed you of your innocence, and allowed you to witness things a child’s eyes should never see. Sorry I stole your youth and forced you into adulthood way before your time. I am so sorry my demons became yours. I’m sorry I put others before you. I am sorry I was too high and drunk to realize how badly you wanted my love and affection. Sorry I pushed you into the arms of men searching for a fathers love. I am sorry. I am so sorry I couldn’t guide you and teach you… love you and father you… nurture you and make you feel secure. I am so very sorry. I’m sorry I left you feeling lost and broken… I am sorry that you are still hurting…that you still long for my love…I’m loving you from heaven… and I’m proud of how you’ve overcome… I see your struggle and your pain and I am sorry I am not there with you. I’m sorry for all the years you suffered in a violent relationship because you didn’t know any different. I am sorry for the wrong paths you chose because I wasn’t there to advise you. I know my death was senseless and preventable… I am sorry I didn’t hear your cries…your pleading…and begging… for me to stop…for me to choose life…to choose you. I’m so sorry I didn’t choose you. I’m sorry that you won’t ever receive this letter…or get the closure that you want so badly. I am sorry that I never said I was sorry. My dearest sweet daughter…I loved you dearly…and I am so very sorry.