Archive for January, 2011

January 28, 2011

a beautiful love…

This video was so incredibly touching.  reminded me of how fragile life can be… and how it can change in a split second…

It also reminded me how powerful love can be… and how there are still some people out there that truly mean… “in sickness and in health”

What a sacrifice this young man is making to take care of the woman that he pledged his love to…

I know that I would be capable of such a sacrifice… but I don’t condemn those who are not… who would not be able to deal with the pain and agony of seeing a loved one in such an unfornuate situation…

I think part of the reason why I love so fearlessly is because I know that at any given moment…life as I know it… could be over… and what is life without love anyway…

January 28, 2011

Strangers…

LMAO at this draft that was sitting in the land of never to be published posts…

posts that are mostly me venting… never really intended to be read by others…

its funny to read it now…

to remember what it felt like when i was being jerked around…

i forced what was never meant to be…

and today it is no longer…

life is funny…

has a way of just weeding out…

what/who doesnt belong…

i miss this place…where i say whats on my mind…its my place… read or dont… not concerned with whether you will or you wont… feeling like im on a roller coaster ride…with high peaks…and low lows… your words feel like either fuckin heaven… or low blows… say what you mean…and mean what you say… quoting me lyrics…taking me high… then making me feel disposable… making me sigh… this love i have… i gave it to you… but if you cant handle it… if you’re not ready… theres nothing i can do… just have to let you go…let you be you…because this web of confusion you have spun…its simply too much for me… yeah they got nothing on me… and yeah maybe we could do the unthinkable… but what the fuck does that really mean… in the end i guess its all talk…sounds good to say… keeps me chasing the carrot on the stick just a lil longer… the elusive butterfly… never to be caught… thats you…

and now..

we are exactly what we were in December of 2009…

strangers…

January 25, 2011

Never…

Wow… You’re so heavy on my mind today. I feel you so strongly… Wish you could dry my tears… I’m tired… And I miss what we never had more than you never knew… Because you never really tried to do what you never thought was possible… So your life was never what it could have been… And we’ll never know the good times we never had… But still… I never thought… That losing what never was… Would hurt so bad… Never.

RIP Papi

January 24, 2011

360…

I love it when you’re right… But I’ll still love you when you’re wrong… I hate it when we fight…. But I’ll still love you during and after the feud… I love you when you’re happy… But I’ll love you harder when you’re sad… I love it when you have a zest for life… But my love will be your light when your own has dimmed… I love to see you succeed… But my love will be right there when you fail… I hate it when you scream… But my love will always see past your anger… I hate it when you’re stressed… But my love will know when you need to be rescued… And when you just need to be silent… I love it when we’re so high… But my love will keep us afloat when it feels like we’re sinking… I hate it when you feel the need to hide your tears… But my love will be your extra fluffy Kleenex if you need it… I hate it when you feel lost… But my love will always be there to guide you… I love when the bank account is fat… But even when the funds are low… My love for you will continue to grow… I love when you’re in perfect health… But when you’re not… My love will be your medicine… I love when you feel fearless and invincible… But my love will hold you when you feel vulnerable and afraid… I love it when you’re ready to stand up and fight… But when you’re too weak… My love will come out like a heavyweight champ… I love when your heart is full of faith… But when you’re uncertain and don’t know where to turn… No matter what direction you choose… My love will be there… 360.

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January 24, 2011

<3

I know that love is infinite…

Beause just when I think I can’t love you any more…

I do…

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January 22, 2011

want more…

When you caress me… Every part of me feels you… And responds to you… When you kiss me … Almost immediately… I can feel myself moisten… My throbbing center aches for you… And anxiously awaits your heavenly touch… The aching intensifies as I feel the weight of your body on mine… As we thrust ourselves into each other… Thoughts of you deep inside me already running wildly in my head… When you explore my body with your tongue… Taking your time to get to my wet and tingling pussy… I can do nothing by gyrate my waist in torment… Knowing that soon your tongue will be massaging me… Your fingers invading me… Probing me… Prepping me… Getting me so wet… That you’ll slip inside me… And you do… All of you… Enters me… Filling me up… Pulsing deep inside me… As my pussy begins to flood… My clit begins to swell… I look at you…. I see the hunger in your eyes… You see the desire in mine… Our bodies intertwined… Heavy breaths and moans of ecstasy flow steadily… The expression on your face… Causes me to claw at your back… Open wider… Push you deeper… I can’t seem to hold you tight enough… or get close enough… and before I know it… I feel the warmth pooling within me… my walls tighten… my clit stiffens… you sense the approaching eruption… and you stay consistent… fucking me deeply… until my body begins to convulse… until my pussy is gripping you so tight… you can’t help but stay completely inside me… only stopping when you feel my body become limp… almost lifeless… and then you kiss me… but we’re not done… I still want more…

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January 21, 2011

just thinking…

…of all the times I’ve said I love you…The people I gave my love to…If it ended…Was it ever really love…I think it was…maybe not for the right reason…And perhaps not at the right time…But…if it’s true love…If it’s your soul mate…Will those things matter…Love isn’t always convenient…It doesn’t care that you’re not ready…Or that you weren’t looking…That you’ve recently lost love…Or that you’ve sworn it off forever…

Love…

True… Spellbinding… Earth shattering… Consuming love…

You know it when you feel it…
And there’s no denying it…

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January 21, 2011

your best position…

I could say some shit
that would make your mind bleed
Have you hemorrhaging
like a strung out dope fiend
Have your heart racing
Your feet pacing
Your lips flapping
Your hands ghetto clapping
Relax love
You’re no competition
Something is missing
Something god given
Lemme school you
And these other children
Heed
Take a good listen
Shutting the fuck up
Might be your best position
I’m gonna spare you
And your feelings
Cos I couldn’t stand the site of your teary eyed grieving
Lemme give you a prescription
Take two shut the fuck ups
And call me in the morning
I’m sorry love
I’m really listening
So excuse my yawning
But you’re boring
Damn I’m sorry
Let’s bring it back
To where I was somewhat sympathetic
But damn girl
You’re so pathetic
Don’t know what else to say
Please just heed
And listen
Shutting the fuck up
Really might be
Your best
Position

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January 12, 2011

LOVE…

i have been sitting here thinking about LOVE… the emotion that has the ability to take you so very high… and drop you so hard on your ass that you will wish you couldnt feel anything at all…

to LOVE feels wonderful… but most times we LOVE with ulterior motives… because we want to be loved back… because we want to feel the safety and security of LOVE…

The truth is … LOVE doesnt have to happen for a reason… it doesnt require reciprocation…

LOVE  just is…

when people we love die… the LOVE never ends… it is infinite…

when songs we LOVE stop playing… we LOVE and remember them just as fondly…

When perfumes we LOVE discontinue… we can close our eyes and still recall the scent and the LOVE…

when you LOVE someone who doesnt LOVE you back… it is LOVE all the same…

a quote that i LOVE…

If I LOVE you, what business is it of yours? ~Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

its my heart, and i will LOVE if i wanna…

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January 6, 2011

crushing…

I don’t know why
You came to me
But it’s one of those questions
I don’t much care to answer
You’re here
And you feel magical
You’ve pulled the rabbit from the hat
liberated her
Freed her
I wonder if
You even know
How beautiful You are
I want to love You
Crazy I know
I ask myself how…
But it’s one of those questions
I don’t much care to answer
I don’t question
The sunrise
Or the sunset
And to me
You feel just as natural
Like morning dew
And summer rain
Sweet as candy apples
And sugar cane
I’m so happy
You came to me
I don’t know why
And I don’t much care
To know
The answer ❤